almost...so close

well...
looks like my weeks in nyc are coming to an end quicker than I can realize. Before I know it school will be over, I'll be through with working [temporarily], and I'll be on my way back to VA...
How sad that is...
Then before I can breathe I'll be on my way to Mexico for Jan!
A whole month +! Almost 2 months.
I can't believe it, I'm sad.
Well I mean I'm glad classes are about done, but I hate to leave the city and anything worthwhile in it that I care about...
I just don't want to be forgotten about because I would never forget anything important in it to me.
Trying not to think about things coming to an end...
I guess I'll just go with the flow of things, and see how it all ends up...

Thanksgiving

Well, now that the fattest day of the year is gone we can all look forward to the fattest time of year...
I hope everyone had a lovely Thanksgiving this past week. Mine was filled with family[glad to see everyone that could make it, Mary I know everything will be fine with you and the baby, sorry you couldn't be there, and Grandma, we all love and miss you!] and good food [mommy and daddy, it was all so tasty!-def felt good to be home].

Who did I see over my short period of being at home in NoVA...
Well first off Sean helped me catch the train at 4:40am on Wednesday so that I could make it in time for my grandma's funeral mass in NoVA. So neither the homeless or the pigeons got me, I was seeing headlines...anyways caught the train, figured the metro out. Can I just say that the DC metro is stupid. It gives me anxiety to have to keep my metrocard so I can leave! NYC is better. PERIOD. At least when it comes to that business...
Uncle Jim picked me up.
Funeral mass was...emotional, beautiful, spiritual, and everything I wanted it to be. I'm glad I was there.
I went to visit my 'black' family later that night in Centrville. That was fun, interoggated Nicole's new little guy friend...who let me tell you...she is 14! and he is 17!...mmhmm that's what I said...anyways though.
Then later I went to the Sullivan's abode. Bonded with the family...and I am looking forward to possible wood chopping and Christmas cookie making closer to Christmas...YES! But we shall see...
Thanksgiving was nice, the fam came over to my house this time.
Gill came over and we watched 28 Days Later, and 28 Weeks Later with Beccy.
Talladega Nights-2 days in a row is just a little over doing it...
Ate some leftover cake the next day, almost died from that...Yeah, never again.
Therefore anything to be done Friday Night was a wrap.
I did however manage to see Enchanted before I got food poisoning. That right there...is Mandy's life, only she would never decide to want to leave her happy fairytale life. It was funny, but you wont be missing anything is you don't pay the ridiculous movie prices to see it. Hmm...I'm thinking its worth a matinée, but do expect little kids everywhere! No escape. But it was fun to hang out with my cousins from Minnesota.
Oh and that WAS Black Friday btw. I did not step foot in a mall, but I did go to Reston Town Center briefly.
Got back on the bus to NYC Sat morning thanks to my parents...at 7:45 am. Even with extra food from raiding the pantry.
Now that I'm back in the city...Well this weekend was fun, I hung out with Stephs, Sean, Justin, Marielle, Lauren, and my Adrianne and TIMMY! Had some drinks, it was nice. Haven't felt like that in a while...
Now the rush begins of where I freak out because I have projects and finals and tests to study for. With only 3 more weeks left...yeah...its going to get crazy so for anyone who interacts with me between now and Dec 10th, I would like to apologize for any future crankiness you might experience.
Ok I am procrastinating on work I need to get done by writing this blog. So look forward to Holiday pics soon in NYC! whoohoo!

Spread the Cheer!
xxoxoo
Oh and this doesn't do justice, but I LOVE ANNA'S EYES! hahaha

'Tis the Season

only 4 more weeks of school left until I am finished with my 5th semester of school. [Thank you Lord]

today is Adrianne and Timmy's 1 year anniversary, [go you for this far!]

Friday- Sean took me to see the Body Exhibit down at South Street Seaport. It was really nice and fun, since it was his idea and I have been wanting to go. Really touching and amazing. I recommend everyone to see it.

A moment of prayer for a guy who lost his leg as well as the driver who innocently didn't see him run out into the middle of the street...crazy on both ends, but yeah.

Trees are starting to light up all around the city. My roommate is also a holiday fanatic[lucky for her]. We put up some lights around the room last week, so they've been on pretty much since then. We've made snow flakes [it snowed a bit today this morning] and they are on our windows. And my xmas play-list has been playing almost what seems like nonstop. It's a wonderful feeling, this holiday season...it just makes me feel so warm and nice inside.

With everything else set aside, the holiday season makes me miss a lot of things, memories, friends, family, even old loves. I know I've vowed to never say that, but who am I kidding. There's something about the season that makes you want to be with someone and everything be perfect surrounded by pretty lights, drinking hot chocolate, staring at the huge Christmas tree, or a fire burning and watching people ice skate. And when you're alone and have no one special during the season, it just sucks really. Thanks to family and friends though, I guess that's what they are there for, no matter what, you're never really alone.

I just love this season, from Thanksgiving all the way until Valentine's Day. It's just my favorite part of the year emotionally and mentally. Whether I have someone special or not, it's still my most favorite time of year. [Although it wont be the same this year without Grandma]

I can't wait to get home and see some people I haven't seen in so long. I'll be making some road trips and short trips, but either way, I'm going to make the best of it.

Oh and FYI Mexico is looking good still...definitely will keep that updated.

I think Starbucks is making me fat. I need to start watching what I eat, it's so easy to fall behind, plus I am going to get back in the gym! Swear on it. Oh and Andy said he was going to start the food journal again today, so that should be up and running again.

Today I stopped into my old Creative Writing Prof. office and gave him a 'Pass the Cheer' coupon for a buy on get on free drink from Starbucks. My good deed for the day. He's one of my favorite prof. He's sort of awkward and unusual, in a cool, sincere way though, not weird or creepy, just very smart and different. Shout out to Prof. Hyde! Wished him a happy holiday and all that, he has always helped me out, from letters of recommendation to anything I ask really...thanks again!

My life is like a fight right now and I'm tired of fighting.
This is exactly what I meant and how I feel right now...am I in the midst of being pulled down? hmm...time to reevaluate the situations and see what's worth what and what's not.

I love the love.

OverDose

I couldn't reach the nipple, but eh you get the point. Fun times this weekend. Trying to clear my head and release my mind. Read on for more...

Well, I'm sorry it has been a while...but as many of you know...my amazing grandmother has passed away, and that has taken a toll on my emotional side. [Love and miss you g*ma, R.i.P]
These past few days/weeks have been incredibly busy so here is another random thought entry as it comes...been home a lot, got to see the family so that was good. Miss everyone, glad everyone made it out to VA. Wont be long before we get together again so...until then...

work is great, still having a great time with all the partners there, no problems or issues. Fun team and fun environment. I guess I've been trying to keep myself busy so I can keep my head full in order to remain sane, some people deal with things differently. Mine is to make myself so incredibly busy and tired that I have little time to think about the problems or issues at hand.

school has been a race so far. Everything is flying by so fast. Midterms are pretty much over. Only about 4 classes left, then that's it. Call it a semester and we're done. I'm getting nervous about a lot of things, including group projects that are being poorly communicated and ran [believe me I tried to take charge but the reigns were taken from me, which is fine as long as the leader can handle the heat] Also there are rumors going around that the Mexico trip isn't confirmed yet, and if I don't go, I will be pissed, because here's the thing...well basically...it's going to mess a lot of things up for my schedule and plan guideline-wise...which I should be used to and not be surprised. Damn, please please please don't let me down FIT, if there is one time you DON'T let me down...please let is be for my study abroad plans...

Luckily I have been able to enjoy some personal time, from what is left after school and work with my friends. Sean has been really supportive, well all my friends have been, but yeah. This past weekend my mom's friend's daughter came to hang out in the city [chels]. So I got the girls together, and we all went out to Avalon to dance, but jeez, it feels weird to go out because I hardly go out to clubs like that as it is anymore...it was cute though because being from VA [Chelsea] she is used to things closing down around 2am, but nope, when we party here, we make it a long night. But our out of town friends faded fast. It's okay though, still had fun.

Hung out with my Steph, John, Chels, and Sean all night Sat, after I showed Chels around the city, we went to Vickies, A&F, and ice skating in Bryant Park. Then there was a lot of crap witht he security guards with sign ins and overnights and blah blah blah. Anyways everything worked out ok in the end. So whatever. But umm what else, Oh I did get to see my mommy and so that was fun, thanks for the food ma.

It was cool because all of my friends I hung out with this weekend had never met, so I was a little nervous getting them all together, but I'm just glad everyone had fun and got along. Yay!

I'm dead tired though, finishing/procrastinating homework due tomorrow, less than 4 hours of sleep, going to see Tyler Perry's Why Did I Get Married AGAIN [only because it was THAT good] with Smiley [ new fun friend! :-)] And cleaning the room, because it's trashed. I had fun but I never want that many people in my room again...haha or at least have them all be my responsibility. Fun though.

Hope everyone else had a fun weekend.

I'm pooped.

Halloween 2007

So my Halloween involved working during the day, but then doing my favorite part, which is the HUGE parade that goes through the streets. Some people don't know this but Halloween is HUGE here in NYC. I mean seriously, think half naked people including females AND males.
Well the Sunday before I went Club Pacha for a Halloween bash, it was fun. Here are some pics from there:
Here I am with a bloody surgeon, and the girls we went to the club with.



After work I had this headache that I













thought was going to make me roll up and die, but then I sucked it up thanks to Ibprofin. Then I took a nap woke up, got dressed, and hit the streets with Marielle and Manny's entourage. The best costume I loved was by far a guy from FIT dressed as Britney Spears from the VMA's. Unfortunately I didn't get a pic, but the image will remain in my head forever. It was perfectly planned out. A wig, sparkly black bra and boy shorts, and the muffin tops to go along with it. Anyways I decided to go traditional this year with the nurse outfit. This wasn't the best Halloween, didn't get to spend it with MY entourage but oh well. Still had fun turning heads. Here are some of the pics:

• These were my bodyguards for the night, David and Mike. They made me laugh all night long... So glad they were there, it was fun!
• Then we got some really dressed up ADULTS, that's why I love this, because there are like no kids out here, haha It's crazy, grown people acting wild and crazy. So FUN!
  

Storm Troopers, lots of craziness at the parade...

















Aww I love couple costumes! So adorable!

















Heroes!





Even McDonald's Employees got dressed up, that was fun!

stress*flow

There are so many things going on in my head right now, I feel like it might explode...

• I am having a family emergency, my grandma is not doing too well...this is the first time someone I consider myself to be very close with is close to being lost...I've never done this before, how does this go?? I am okay until I have to openly deal with it by talking out loud about it, so I have no idea what it will be like when I see her...I'm scared, I don't want to go, but I do...I almost feel like I'm in denial because I just am not completely accepting of the fact that she isn't doing too well. I just wrote her a letter last week, talking about Thanksgiving coming up, Mary [my cousin] and the baby and just seeing her for the holidays. I mean this is all happening so fast! I'm not ready for her to leave, I just started getting really close with her over the past few years since I've been away from VA this just doesn't seem fair.
  
• I had to take off the next couple days to go to VA, my whole family is already there, I wasn't going to go until Sat, but something tells me to just go now. So I'll be on my way in about 6 hours. My brother has already flown in from England, I'm basically the only one left to get there. In my letter I was telling my grandma to just hold on, because I would be there soon...I guess sooner than I thought.
• I am really missing VIBE right now, thankfully though, Aileen has offered to let me 'shadow' her so that I can still be there to help out, I am just as of now an unofficial intern. Today I went back for the first time, everyone was surprised to see me, it was nice helping everyone out again. Just like Sept...damn I miss it. Spring is right around the corner though, so I will be back before I know it. My name is on this month's issue for interns though, so that's cool. [Keyshia Cole cover]
• I've thought a lot about my love life, and realized that no one is going to want to settle down since I can't even stay in one place [this is my excuse at least for now]. I mean if I plan to go home to VA for winter vacation, then Mexico for January, then back to NYC for spring, VA and London for summer, then Rome for the fall...I mean I'm like a nomad...so I've come to the conclusion that I just should relax and go with the flow of things [well it's what I should have been doing this whole time, but now I've just had a little epiphany] so anyways I'm more accepting of my failure with relationships...that's all.
  
• I miss friends, I feel like the older we get, the farther we grow apart....is that the result of bad connections and keeping in touch, or is this how it is supposed to be? Oh well, all the more reason to concentrate on the prize...
• My math teacher is officially a douche-bag. I didn't realize my parents were paying money for me to go to school and not get help when I ask. Tell me if this makes sense and if I am over reacting...I sit in the front row of my Tuesday night class. I never have fallen asleep, I actively participate, I answer most of the questions anyways by volunteering. So the one time I don't understand something, and ask for help [when no one else in the class does because they just don't care] and then I still continue to not understand...he gets mad and frustrated. Saying the same things over and over which I originally never understood in the first place is not going to help me understand either....PLUS when another student and myself stay after to try to continue on trying to figure out the same stuff we've been struggling with the entire class, he has the nerve to rush and leave. The class is technically still in session for another 40 minutes. Don't tell me to think about it some more and maybe I will figure it out by next class....because if I couldn't understand it when you tried to help me, I'm not going to be able to figure it out on my own...smart-one. I swear...idiots.
• It's that time of the month, so I'm extra moody, extra pimply and emotional. great. love it.

ughhh....*sigh* stress

Though I walk in the midst of trouble, You will revive me; You will stretch forth Your hand against the wrath of my enemies, And Your right hand will save me.
-Psalm 138:7