Merry Christmas [letter]

Merry Christmas to everyone! [or happy holidays, whichever you prefer]
As we all know...this is my favorite time of year, so of course this is the best time to reach me...because it's the best mood I'm going to be in ever...i know...some might think that is pretty sad.
This is my 'would-be' christmas letter that I would send out if I had an abundant amount of addresses and whatnot.

This past year, 2007 has been pretty crazy.
As far as school, I'm still at Fashion Institute of Technology. I'm still going strong, just finished my 5th semester [beginning my 3rd year as a Junior]. This past May I graduated with my Associates degree in Fashion Merchandising and Management. And I'm already ahead of the game on my Bachelor degree for Advertising and Marketing Communications. Rounding out my GPA to a 3.1 when I finished this semester. I was also informed I had been accepted into an internship I applied for that takes place in London, England for a month this summer. I'm pretty excited about that [As well as my brother].
This summer I found a secret passion which has brought out my domestic side [or goddess-as my mom would say]. After working as a camp counselor my love for children has grown, and the fire still burns as I've been able to celebrate a new little cousin that was just born into the family [Ty!] And even better there are 2 more on the way.
With gains comes the greatest loss, losing my Grandmother. As suddenly as she passed away, it was extremely hard on everyone. She was loved and is missed dearly. Thanks to everyone who extended their support in our time of need.
Also my sister was very sick right before my Grandmother passed away. It was hard but she is recovering. She had a serious infection and was hospitalized for weeks. She lives at home with my parents now. It's been quite a while since we've all been under the same roof like that.
This is the l o n g e s t amount of time I have been at home in my actual house, staying in my own bed since I originally left for school back in 2005. It's been a big adjustment and hard to get used to.
I'm spending the New Years with Sean and some friends in NYC. I'm looking forward to getting back up there and partying the end of the year out. That will also be my first time spending New Years in NYC.
My biggest preparation at this point is my trip to Mexico City. My parents have supplied me a map, a phrase book [which by the way has a whole section on drugs, sex, pickup lines, and more REAL fun stuff] and money. I leave on Jan. 5th and will return to school [nyc] on the 25th. I've never flown internationally, or been in a foreign country without my family. I'm a little scared but more excited. There are 11 girls going on the trip and one wacky teacher, she is fun.
Since I've been home I've grown to appreciate my friends who have grown with school, and recognized those who haven't changed much at all.
I can't wait to go to Mexico, and then I can't wait to get back to NYC. This break has been way too long already. I love my family but I miss my life, friends and arrangements in NY.

I guess this year has been great. It's been hard and emotional. But most of all fun and memorable.

I'm still in love with life, the city, and all of the above.

I hope everyone found happiness and peace this holidays season and that they find and get everything they want in the new year.

Love Love Love xxx

Maggie

Truth hurts

The truth is...
I fell in love, and I was way in over my head.
It's pretty sad that someone that I care about so much is so selfish that all they can think about is themselves even though they admit and realize their selfishness. If you realize it, then you're only using it as an excuse, because if you wanted to better yourself, you would work towards a positive outcome of your selfishness knowingly.
I always say that things will ALWAYS work out in the end, and they do, for the better. I can only do so much, when it comes to relationships, things can only work out if each person involved wants it to work out. If there is any doubt, it'll show. It always does.
All I asked for was time, which obviously was too much, and if that was the case from the start then you should have just let me know. I did everything and gave everything emotionally, support, and all my feelings, I've run out of things to give, now all I can offer is my friendship, and hope that you can also learn from this. If not, then I'm sorry for you, because I'd hope the selfishness wont get in the way of what could be your greatest happiness in life.

I can't blame anyone but myself for setting myself up for disappointment once again. I let my guard down way to fast, and fell to quick. It's okay though, everything is a lesson learned.
I took a risk and a big chance without second thoughts or even looking back. I'd do it again too, just so I could say that I did it, and it was fun while it lasted but just wasn't right for me.


Sometimes I wish I had never fallen in love ever. But then again, it's the best feeling in the world.
It just sucks to know I could be so free of pain, but then what's a life without love?
I do think it's the saddest thing when I hear someone who has never been in love. Once you've fallen in love at least once in your life, it's hard not to get addicted to want to fall in love again, just so you can get that feeling again...

December me

Well, well, well...
This has certainly been a busy week for many reasons.
At work a partner got in a almost physical fight with 2 female customers...it was crazy. Twilight moment...everything just stopped, everyone just stared...but whatever that's not the point, the point is I would like to clarify my name real quick...
This event happened at about 3:15 pm I was scheduled to get off work at 3:30pm. Never the less while everything was going down I was on bar, I stayed in my position the whole time. My shift even thanked me for being one of the only partners to stay on the floor. I asked if he needed me to stay later, he said no, and so I left.
It's funny because my manager asked if it was true that I clocked out and left early without telling anyone on the day everything happened. Of course people are still talking about it and blah blah blah. Anyways I said of course not, I would never do anything like that, and I told him how the shift thanked me and everything. [Because half the people on the floor left and disappeared] He said I thought so, because that wasn't like me to just up and leave. "That's not my Maggie"- of course its not. No names were given. BUt for the record from other people I have been told that it was the shift trying to cover his ass saying I left. WTF. Are you being serious...so anyways I see how it is. It's so sad when you can't trust people and their mouths in your own working environment. There is so much drama at my job, but I think it's anywhere you go, just depends on how much you left yourself get dragged into it. So I'm going on strike there [friendship-wise]. I go to work to work, and then I bounce. It's funny because people talk, and vent about other people in front of me, I hear everything, the gossip, the hate, everything. I just sit there, listen, keep my mouth shut and observe.
The time clock shows i didn't clock out early, so the proof is there...Oh he is so lucky my manager asked me not to talk to him about it...it's okay, you get the fake smile from now on buddy. People want to try to set me up...yeah right, please, you don't even know...I'm so good at what I do, and you can't catch m e making mistakes like that, especially stupid ones.
I love working at my job, don't get me wrong, it's just that I have just seen out of this past week how a lot of people really feel and how they really are. It's a shame. People are sad...it's so pitiful.

I got to hang out at VIBE yesterday until I went to work and got my hair braided by my friend Christina. Got to see all my interns, I still love it there. Lumbardh even stopped by after he got off when I was working! awww Lumbardh! haha

After I got off work Sean and I went to see the Christmas tree at Rockefeller Center. I saw my most favorite part, the snowflake light show on Saks Fifth Ave building to Carol of the Bells. Watched it twice. It was amazing as usual.

The christmas tree looks spectacular. [Thank you Sean for coming with me!]
But before that we were walking past the Garden, and this guy looked in bad shape. He had knocked over a trash can and just looked really bad. He didn't look homeless, he looked like a regular old guy. So we helped him into a cab, I hope he got home okay. He said he was a doctor and that he went for a drink and someone put something in his drink. He knew what was going on, because he wanted to go home, but he couldn't walk or stand by himself at that point. It's also sad how no one wanted to help him. This 40 year old looking white male was struggling to hard. So we helped him and I felt really good that we did. [At one point I was like I think people might think we are about to rob him, at least that's what their facial expressions looked like at one point when we told him to hold onto the wall and lean up against it while Sean called a cab and I held him up]. Don't worry people, we are the good kind of minorities. [Previously my roommate said I looked like a 'hoodlum'- funny at first but in my opinion somewhat ignorant.]

I made Sean a 'party' cake because it's his bday today! SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEAN. It was very tasty too. Chocolate and chocolate.

Oh and let me just add...so many projects and etc for the next 2 weeks.